The Sad Truth

Hi, and thanks again for coming back.

For two days now I have been tending to my garden and updating my gardening blog’s content. I got spurred on because my mom gave me jalapeño and habanero seeds, and my husband loves chili. Yes, we do not have those seeds here in the Philippines, so I went totally ballistic. So, during the course of my blogging about jalapeños, I have discovered a sad truth. There are more people interested in cooking rather than gardening, and they prefer to engage in replying to blogs and sharing social media content on that niche as opposed to gardening.

That made me wish – for a short time – that I have a cooking blog instead of a gardening blog. However, I am just going stick to my garden because this average home cook is not Masterchef material.

So, why am I bothered by this?

For one thing, I would like to connect with people who share the same interests as I do. I would like to educate as well learn from my audience about the challenges of growing your own garden. As a freelance writer, gardening is one of my niche, and if I can entice readers to engage in a healthy discussion outside of a forum, then that would be a great accomplishment that I can proudly add to my resume. I had experienced teaching in the past, and I have learned that different students have different perspectives on how to solve an issue. And your readers can give you that same experience once you get them to come out of their shells.

That being said, I did not have enough material to use for my blog. Most of my audience come from overseas for purposes of affiliatons and marketing – opportunities that are close to nil here in my country. Not so much people talk about their gardening techniques on how to take care of crops while coping with four amazing seasons – something that I wish to know more about because my experience is limited to dry and wet climates only.

Sure there are sites that will expertly tell you how to take care of crops, and I am glad that they take the time to do so. But what I am after as a blogger is the experience of average gardeners like me. How do they take care of their plants? What problems do they face and at what stage do they notice them? And are their problems common or just isolated incidents? So they recover from the experience, or do they quit? Those are just a few of what I wish to know, and things will definitely snowball from there.

So, if there are average gardeners out there with a blog, give me a holler and let’s exchange some ideas on how to grow food right at our backyard, balcony, lawn, or veranda, or whatever.

Yes, I am that desperate for gardening blog buddies!

Until then, and cheers to you, my future garden blog buddy.


Emotionally Frozen??

I haven’t written much since my grandmother’s death. I could not write anything that is free-flowing and natural like I naturally do in this blog when I started writing again. I can take care of my gardening blog every once in a while, but the thing is, that blog is easy for me. It’s technical and does not warrant much personal and professional sharing of experiences that put me out there just like this blog does.

Have I become frozen for a while because of grief? Or is it because I’m doing part-time writing again with my boss that I am running out of ideas and insights to write for myself? Or is it having two professionals looking into my blog that gets me all frozen? Performance anxiety? Burn out? I have no idea.

The only consolation that I have is that I am still writing, even though it is not for me. But even I can sense the emotional barrier, and the preference to go on like a robot or a text book.

Ironically, the Oscar Winning musical score Let It Go won’t do on my frigid state. I want to let go, but then… what should I let go of?

I Wish I Have An Oak

I used to love writing on my tablet when I got my WordPress App. But after 2 gardening posts and getting half the thought of my blog for this site trashed (app did not opt to save when I tapped “back”), I discovered that my finger tapping cannot keep up with my thoughts. And since my husband is using the computer, my next recourse is to use my sketchpad and a pencil. I like the pencil better because I can erase my mistakes. I use my sketchpad to serve as a visual.

I long to have a tree as ancient as this one as a companion for writing. I am so full of nerves, pressured over my work, my responsibilities to my family, and my obligation to help my mother, as well as my sense of self-preservation. I know I can push myself to do all of these things. I know I am capable; what I am fearing is the aftermath. I once took on this superwoman role, only to find myself bedridden because of vertigo, headache, nausea, and overall body weakness.

I wish to gain back such strength, such stamina. My boss needs me for work, my daughter needs me to take care of her, and my mom only has me to watch out for her apartment.

I wish I can do more, people want me to do more.

Should I?

I wish I have an oak….


Write If You Want To Write

I can’t remember who said it and where I read it. But what I remember was that there was a man asking a famous writer if he can be a writer. The writer then said, “If you wake up one morning and the first thing that you think about is writing, then you already are a writer.”

It stuck to me because I wanted to be a writer ever since high school. But I never got that compulsion to write that it was the first thing I wanted to do and think about first thing in the morning.


A Blogger of Many Talents

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I am a writer. I cannot deny that. Any other artistic talent  that my mother contributed to the family gene pool, my tiny yet feisty older sister gathered them all. I don’t  do decors, I don’t do stylings, I don’t do anything artistic whatsoever.

I am the practical and subdued person in the family in a sense, and I cannot and will not change that.

However, when it comes to blogging, you have to make your posts stand out. And a blogger can do that by adding some visuals to your posts like pictures or videos. I don’t do videos, I am a stiff ice queen with no personality when I’m in front of a camera.

So, I resort to taking pictures instead using a basic digital camera with very little options for making great pictures.

And I also turn into YouTube and learn from tutorials on how to edit pictures. Right now, I’m trying to learn how to create a white background with shadows for my GardenThrove blog.

So, now I am a writer, a photographer, and a beginning digital picture editor.

How do you apply your talents when it comes to blogging? Come on, share them with me, please, by posting a comment below.

See you around.